Why did infinite consciousness create the horrors of suffering?
Humans are abnormal in how we resist our experience.
“When everything is wanted, there is no need for diversity in what you are experiencing. Our rejection of our outer reality causes us to create an inner reality — a refuge we call a self.”
Physicality is created by consciousness. It is a subjective experience, not an objective thing. Consciousness creates physicality to express itself creatively. Physicality is like paint to an artist. The same is true for linear time. Linear time is not a thing we exist within. It is how we have chosen to arrange experience. We are the creators of the time we experience, and, just like physical matter, we use it to express ourselves creatively.
Being human is not a right that is earned. It is a free choice any being in consciousness can make. In being human, you are special because anyone who chooses to be human has a special experience. Being human makes you special, just as swimming makes you wet.
For someone who teaches that consciousness creates reality, the hardest thing to convey is why we choose an experience that includes suffering. The headline of everything I have taught on the subject is that we want to experience contrast, difference, and individuality. We are more than willing to experience suffering, as we have found it to be an integral part of that package. While this is the central argument and is important to understand, it is not a satisfying answer. There is, however, another argument I received through the gnostic process which is far more convincing.
As old souls, having lived many human lives, we recognize the truth in these explanations about the incredible joys of duality, physical embodiment, linear time, and mortality. Still, there is a part of us that knows realities exist that are far more agreeable than the human experience. Understandably, in times of distress, we crave that kind of life. This is our recognition that the human experience is not ‘just another reality.’ At a deep level, we know there must be a reason we keep coming back to this experience.
You keep incarnating here because it is a special experience.
What makes this experience so special is the heights of joy, the beauty of diversity, and the sheer range of emotions we feel. Despite how evident the perks described by this argument are, it rubs because it sounds like ‘we choose the pain to get the gain’ and that nothing pleasant can happen unless there are unpleasant things to counter it.
Is the human experience really an amazing game, or is it actually cruel?
Surely, it is legitimate to see it either way if reality is a balance of ups and downs. Shouldn’t we commiserate life as much as we celebrate it? Is that not more honest and reflective of where we are and what we are experiencing? What possible ‘high’ or range of emotions can justify experiencing being physically enslaved for our entire life or being tortured? It just doesn’t add up. Surely, this can’t be the full answer. Are we just meant to accept that, deep down, we are all just sadists and masochists?
Are we meant to accept nightmare lifetimes because of a promise of living our highest fantasies?
Is that a deal you would accept? It doesn’t feel like a robust foundation through which to accept and allow reality (which is what I teach because you will not allow your reality until you accept you are creating it, and to accept you are creating it, you need to be given a positive reason that outweighs the negative).
One solution to “How could the best high be worth that horrific low?” is the idea that it is not a straight trade of accepting the low to get the high because, in leaving the non-physical, we are not leaving a neutral place. This is the idea that there is a downside to being eternal, so we would rather live in the highs and lows of mortality than in the eternal, ‘endless’ neutrality of the non-physical.
Unfortunately, we cannot know what ‘the one’ felt that led it to birth ‘the many.’ It is unknowable. My personal feeling, which I can only equate to ‘the consensus among that which I draw from’, is that there is nothing negative in the experience of oneness as, although it is eternal, it does not experience the passing of time in the way we do. It has no sense of “this will never end.” But this is pure speculation.
Thankfully, my answer for you today does not have that kind of uncertainty. It also clarifies exactly what it is about the human experience that makes it so special.
The Earth is different because of how we resist our experience.
There are infinite variations of this experience of resistance, and the Earth can be thought of as the mother of them all. However, not only is ‘not resisting’ your reality possible, it is the norm. Humans are rare — atypical / abnormal / freaks in how we resist our experience.
Realities that do not resist their experience are dreamlike. A physical scene can suddenly change. People can just appear. Almost anything can happen, and it is just accepted. There is no need to not accept anything because everything is the will of consciousness expressed. Whatever is no longer wanted changes and is replaced by what is wanted. This is why there is no need to resist anything, because the response to anything unwanted is to want something else. And because there is no resistance, the unwanted thing transforms into the wanted thing.
- There are no dilemmas, issues, or problems.
- There is nothing tricky to navigate.
- There is no concept of even needing to navigate. Navigation is automatic / invisible / imperceptible.
- You want something. You experience it.
- Experiencing it makes you either want more of it (which you then receive) or want something else (which you then experience).
- Because there is no resistance, there is flow.
- Physicality flows imaginatively / creatively.
Consciousness experiences physicality as a creative medium like paint which can be manipulated in any way it likes. It experiences no difficulty in getting this paint to do exactly what it wants. With a full palette of colors and a blank canvas, an artist can paint anything they can see. They do not feel they cannot paint what they want because the paint they are using is too limited.
The way we experience physicality to be so solid, immutable, permanent, and impenetrable is not just ‘how all physical realities are.’ It is a mirror of our resistance to our experience. In other realities, physicality has solidity in that you can sit on a chair and feel it pressing up on your butt. But, in an instant, you could change that chair into a paddleboard floating on the ocean. These are two very different experiences of physicality / mortality / embodiment.
The defining factor that makes the human experience different is that we experience fear. Questioning why we would choose to experience suffering is really asking, “Why would we choose to experience fear? Why would we want to resist our experience?” This is because fear is at the root of all suffering. Without fear, we do not suffer. [I have a whole section of articles on how fear is created by unconsciousness so I won’t go into that here).]
Without fear, we do not resist our experience.
In realities without fear (which is the norm), where experience is not resisted, there is an experience of constant flow. These realities are like being in a boat in the flow of a river, or falling into an ever-unfolding fractal. With every moment, life presents something new to see. These are the blissful, flowing realities we have all existed in and crave in times of hardship.
As beautiful as these realities may sound, they could not be more different than ours. What we fail to realize in our imagining of these flowing experiences is that when held within their continually unfolding embrace, we have no inner life. This is because there is simply no need for it to arise.
The inner world we experience when human is a response to our resistance to what is outer.
Without resistance to the outer, there is no experience of the inner. When you are fully present in the outer moment, there is no part of you left for an inner moment. If you do not doubt what you are creating, there is no impulse to try to stop the flow of creation, so you can question who you are, what you are doing, and why you are doing it.
When all that is created is wanted, there are no questions, and there is no self-awareness in terms we would recognize.
When human, we experience fear. When in fear, we question and doubt every aspect of our creation. This not only creates our experience of an inner life / self, it has ultimately created a form of reality where we experience things we are utterly convinced we do not want to experience. This is / was the most horrific discovery in of all of creation because, at the extreme end, it is the experience of feeling horror … of being horrified.
In the flowing realities, there isn’t only no horror. There isn’t even the remotest sense that what you are experiencing is anything other than exactly what you want to experience. Or, to be accurate, there is no sense of evaluation that could even lead to a conclusion of wanted versus unwanted. There is no inner thought. The outer is the expression of everything being expressed. The outer expression is complete / whole.
In realities without resistance, all we know as thoughts and feelings are expressed outwardly. Physical objects are representations of thoughts / ideas.
Self-awareness, our inner life, and the questioning of reality are all products of fear. This is, however, about far more than us wanting to question the where, why, and when of consciousness.
Everything our inner world creates is a product of our fear.
Our hopes, creative dreams, and imaginative fantasies only exist because of our rejection of reality causing us to dream of other experiences, other places, other beings, other worlds, other lives, other possibilities, and other things we could be creating. Until fear was created, experience was far less diverse.
When everything is wanted, there is no need for diversity in what you are experiencing.
The bottom line of all this is that what most defines the human experience is our ability to feel that we do not want what we are experiencing. This is completely atypical because outward reality is the direct manifestation of our desire to experience. The human experience is a deep delusion that we are not creating our experience.
Our rejection of our outer reality causes us to create an inner reality — a refuge we call a self.
Although non-resistant (non-fear-based) realities contain selves, those selves are so engrossed in their present moment perception there is no need for awareness of that self (so whether it really exists is a matter of perspective). It could be said that their experience is all outward, so there is no room or need for the inward experience. However, within the experience itself, there is no recognition of outward versus inward. The experience just ‘is’.
So… the reason we choose to be human, and experience suffering is because the human experience is extremely special, and we like what it does.
The human experience, due to its use of fear, is a reality that creates other realities.
Other realities are like seeds that grow into a single plant that is typically seedless (occasionally producing one or two seeds). The Earth is a plant that is constantly producing seeds, and we love that process — especially how surprising it is.
Realities without fear don’t contain any surprises.
You are a seed creating seeds.
Your inner reality is not just ‘how it is.’ It is a reality experience you are creating. It is a reality experience you are adding to the infinite menu.
You are the mother of many realities.
You are infinite consciousness exploring itself.
These words are a mirror you are looking in.
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